Appearances can be decieving

Another Saturday night , another round of drinks , i'm drunk again and here i'm writing another blog. You will think i'm an alcoholic or rather u might say one who enjoys his drink rather frequently , but maybe appearances can be decieving . Hmm which brings to the point are they (is this a spontaneous blog or what ) . Hmmm they say first impressions last forever , bot do they , from my personal experiences i've learned atleast that i'm not a good judge of people coz the people whom i found weird or not my type are one of my best friends annd people whom i fought for and went against the people who said they were not the people to be trusted turned out to be actual backstabbers.

So how can u judge a person, first impressions are not good , appearances can be decieving, people wear masks beneath masks , are sweet talkers ( for example the Mafia never utters a threat, always reasons) they turn out to be different after knowing them for years ( real thought so Happy people committed suicide) plus people change too but...

"We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves. "
Lynn Hall, Where Have All the Tigers Gone?, 1989

Life is complex isn't it . I'm sure it is , although been through it for only 22 years but it is slowly revealing itself to me . The more i see it the more dull and complex it seems and sometimes when i'm even more drunk i ponder over the question " What is the reason of life " Is it to procreate and give more offsprings , or according to relegious scriptures to attain nirvana or to do good for fellow beings or use our chance to be with The One. According to socologists do work for betterment of mankind and leave a better place for the next generation or something like it . But i ask why , if you are gone none of it will matter to you , i don't believe in afterlife or salvation or anything , when you are dead you are gone you are Worm food or ashes . Why should be peers or next generation or anything. Why are we on this planet and making all its natural resources into unusable resources , makin it all a one way change . I don't know , maybe you can tell me . Or can you ....

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.

John Lennon (1940 - 1980), "Beautiful Boy"

We go on living , maybe in too much pace to stop and think is it worth it but thats a question for a different day

I am the people--the mob--the crowd--the mass.

Do you know that all the great work of the world is done through me?

I am the workingman, the inventor, the maker of the world's food and

   clothes.

I am the audience that witnesses history. The Napoleons come from me

   and the Lincolns. They die. And then I send forth more Napoleons

   and Lincolns.

I am the seed ground. I am a prairie that will stand for much plowing.

   Terrible storms pass over me. I forget. The best of me is sucked out

   and wasted. I forget. Everything but Death comes to me and makes

   me work and give up what I have. And I forget.

Sometimes I growl, shake myself and spatter a few red drops for history

   to remember. Then--I forget.

When I, the People, learn to remember, when I, the People, use the

   lessons of yesterday and no longer forget who robbed me last year,

   who played me for a fool--then there will be no speaker in all the

   world say the name: "The People," with any fleck of a sneer in his

   voice or any far-off smile of derision.

The mob--the crowd--the mass--will arrive then.

Will we arrive then or ever i cannot say that but i would sure like to see that , not that it contributes much to my answer
but i think maybe thats  a life well spent making it happen .

My thoughts are not coherent (but atlaest spontaneous and natural)
so i'll keep blabbering

But at this point i'm thinking what a load of crap have i have been saying....

But its ok i'm drunk (i'm excused)         ;-)